encouragements

broke

2011-12-07T09:52:00.000-08:00

how much i've felt, will you feel it? understand?

you don't. 99 cranes, for you. for your birthday..

whats mine?

forever..

2011-10-24T09:47:00.000-07:00

020309 <3

It have been such a nice time with you.

Being your daughter was so much fun and laughter. you would never ever leave me alone.

Those times were amazing enough for me, i've became a happier and lively person.

I could continue saying how much i miss and treasure those times forever and ever.

I love you daddy, i always do.

Times got really better and we stepped into a r/s.

I've no idea if its really good or bad that we did that, but i never regretted having that time.

I have got to know you better through all the quarrels and misunderstandings we had.

You have definitely made me stronger each time.

You have been part of my life, i would never forget about you.

But if time could be rewind, i wouldn't want to get into a r/s with you no matter how much i love you. I would resist. cause being your daughter was sucha unforgettable moments i ever had.

I would like to tell you this but i don't have such courage to do that.

I wish that you'll be happier and whatever you do.

I just wish, now that we would forever be bff. xoxo.

GKY, thanks for such memories you have given me.

forever your light of your friend,

Jean

PS// i love you daddy.

2011-10-11T21:05:00.000-07:00

Have you change your mind?
You just break something more than just a promise.
I never knew you'll change your mind.

2011-09-30T04:03:00.000-07:00

I need you. Feeling downnnnnnnnnn, shucks my life..

2011-09-04T01:49:00.000-07:00

Its gonna be the last stretch. Give in your best.
I hope we'll still be in this school tog. <3

2011-08-31T09:17:00.000-07:00

Sucha bad time, I've enough.

2011-08-30T02:27:00.000-07:00

I miss you.

2011-08-14T07:34:00.000-07:00

I am so unsure of what is happening right now.

I am stress and stress.

miracle, let it happen

2011-08-01T10:11:00.000-07:00

Happy anniversary

No, I don't understand myself.
There is no reason why, why am I still having feelings for you.
It may be hard to say that we might be close friends or even get back together..

" Will you, take my hand and continue the journey of this tough road again? "

where are you?

2011-08-01T06:59:00.000-07:00

We're so close yet so far.
How're you?
Its the 35 days to Ns.
I'm stress, as usual, but it dosent seems so right?
It is rubbish if I'm not, often thinking why should I be tough and laughing my day through?
It dosent really matter if you would, just smile.

Are you even reading this blog? Or even knowing if this existed?
It just tear me down occasionally.
But whatever it is, I hope you'll do well for your exams, and may you have the power' voice for the upcoming ndp parade pc. Proud of you, you made it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ah6_JKmGQyY

struggling with my weakness

2011-07-27T20:47:00.000-07:00

Being weak its not a choice. I always think that it would be great running around, playing whatever I want, dancing like there's no tomorrow.

I use to be a sports person when I'm in primary school, maybe just not too much.
Playing frisbee, captain ball, hand ball, tag rugby. I almost win most of the champians throughout the years of my primary school life.

Dancing was sucha fun thing, I always look forward to. Do I have to say?

Just the bad part of me, quiet.

I think I do not have to continue, how am I now.
It shucks badly occasionally but yeah.

so how have you been? Imy.

i long to hear

2011-07-22T09:05:00.000-07:00

How have you been? Coping with your studies well?

test, test, test. It just drives me mad.
Having irregular meals and had not have sleeping well.
Everyday, I will only fall asleep at 2-3am, nuts right?
Ulcers have been finding me frequently, and always having sore throat just before oral examinations, dead.

I've long to hear you nagging.

gg

2011-07-22T09:04:00.000-07:00

2011-07-15T09:36:00.000-07:00

messed up

2011-07-08T10:31:00.000-07:00

Its JULY. MESSED UP. LINO. TEST. INSANE. ORALS. SORE THROAT. STUDY.

68 more days to Ns.

Happy Birthday Gordon KY.

2011-06-18T10:50:00.000-07:00

Firstly, a Happy 16th birthday to You. Its your and mine Ns this year, I hope you are well prepared and ready for this battle. May you have an awesome results and able to proceed up from it. May you be able to overcome difficulties and stressful-ness, any obstacle throughout .

Secondly, I wished I have the courage to talk/speak up to you.

PS// every single crane is a hope.

may 9 : im tired

2011-05-09T06:57:00.000-07:00

Its 22 days away from my O level chinese mt. it may sound easy for me, but it isn't. From a A1 to a C5 or U. Its a huge drop. Giving up. Its mad crazy.

An blink of an eye, its mid years. Time passes like a fast forward movie. Going through stress, I may just break down any time. Just a few days back I knew some of my results. Its a tremendous fall. I wonder how I will pull through till n lvl. Trying not to give up even till the last minute. Hope ill stay through. ARGH.

2011-04-14T17:27:00.000-07:00

I never knew how much I could still march, I never knew I would be so weak. I never knew what god plan for me. I just knew,I have to give in my best and cherish whatever time I could do under the sun.

I am very very hurt by what happen today, it is not just a scolding, it is more like a just go away, I don't need you in this drill squad.

I am facing more than what can be seen. I'm very tired..

Shattered dreams..

♥ 020309

2011-03-02T01:34:00.000-08:00

it will be 2 years if we are still together.

Aii Tehh Mash.

forgiveness

2011-02-15T03:19:00.000-08:00

i don't know if you are reading this.
but i shall just pour out everything now.

i love you, that remains the truth, always.
I never once lied about that.
Valentines day just passed, i typed out a freaking long message and deleted it alphabet by alphabet.
I just could'nt take the risk or anything, i don't have courage either.
Seeing you it's like we've just broke off.
Or it's worse then that?
Jean, Jean, stop day dreaming.
I could'nt focus on my studies, just facing walls every single minute.

Your recent facebook status seems to be related to me, or should i say it is?
Cause i hope it is'nt.
Even so..
I would never never treat you like a doll.
I would never never want to act infront of you.
I would never never fall for your buddies or anyone.
I would never never want to hurt you as much as i can.
I would love to talk to you.
I would love to go out with you.
I would love to care about you.
I would miss you.

But do you even know?
Everything that is mention on your fb it's like how i feel, yes i feel the same.
I never know how should i face it, never know!

Posting on fb, twitter & this blog is a way to spill out my sadness, anger, love, crap, whatever.
Cause i would not trust letting someone knows.

I NEVER LIE when i say i want to solve this pile of misunderstands.

Gordon Kwok, i love you but i'm sorry.

2011-01-16T03:13:00.000-08:00

the start of a new year.
I realise i was so stubbon, dumb, childish last time.
Maybe still now, but not as much i guess.

things arent going great for me.
having crazy time in gb & school.
till this extent that i really want to give up and walk away.
but its not that simple, im tired of it.
and when your closest friend treated with attitude, i will be like, what wrong?
im in the midst of falling.
i've just admit it, yeah im weak.

n will be here in no time, just gotta focus and keep going.
loves jean.

a brother of mine, gord.

2010-10-15T04:05:00.000-07:00

Occasionally i just wish time could be turn back.
i would just want to stay as your daughter, just that simple.
After getting into a relationship, we each have different looks towards each other.
Never knowing how is each of us thinking yet always thinking.
so deep, i just wish time could stop & rewind.

You are a very nice guy who i dont deserve anymore.
things getting so complicated that the friendship isnt any longer good.
but i'll always treat you as my brother now.
Brother in Christ, a brot to me.
Always there helping each other up, caring, cheering.
Never fails to let me go crazy that i just wish time could stop right there.
Life dosent goes that way though.

i just hope for us each to be happy & just a simple friendship.
A simple wish i would wish for.
On my birthday, i would just wish to see you as my friend, i would me very happy enough.
but i shall just let nature takes places now.

A brother, i would always cherish.

loves, jean.

not seeking for more

2010-09-23T06:35:00.000-07:00

when will i have the courage again to ask you : how are you?

but yeah, being happy is what each of us now, not seeking for more.

Start preparing for your exams!

all the best & takecare.

-Jean.

a start of something new

2010-09-17T09:12:00.000-07:00

I beg you don't even know the existence of this blog.

It dosent matter much, anything related to me to you is just a dosent matter person.

I dont know what happen, dont want to know what happen.

Nobody knows whats gonna happen to us individual in the future.

you do read or not,

All the best for your upcoming eoy exams, oh & hope you did well for your ct2.

glad that you have your new cliques of friends & back playing bb.

Im not being sarcastic, just glad as a friend, if i am one..

Till here.

God bless.

-Jean.

SMILE

2010-09-09T20:07:00.000-07:00

May joy lives in you.

-Jean.